DEAR MOMMA

My dear wanderers,

Today I chose to share a part of a letter I wrote to my mom who passed away when I was younger. At times, it helps to talk to her as if she was still here with me.

“These past few months haven’t been the easiest. I don’t always know what to say or what to do about any of it.

This world we live in is so full of beauty and yet so broken. So many people struggling to survive from heartbreaks, loss, sickness whether physical, mental, emotional or spiritual. We question ourselves and life in general, believing in lies that are sometimes easier to accept than the truth. We are more comfortable in our shit than we are attempting to get better, do better and be better. So caught up in finding the right person; all while we fail at becoming the right person.

There is an ease in pain, we get used to it, we invite it to stay… why is that? Why is it easier to feel numb than to process things, accept them, heal and move on? Why are we so scared to let the right people in and let the wrong people go? Or to admit that we aren’t happy, that we have a problem, to admit that in our current situation; we are weak. Why is it that some of us feel we should go through things alone while some of us try to fill the holes life left with all the things that will do nothing but make the hole deeper. That even in our darkest moments, we are so focused on the pain and the failure to grab onto the life vest someone is attempting to throw our way.

Momma, there are so many things in this world I fail to understand. The only thing I can do is pray for my family, friends and the rest of the world.”

I pray for everyone who is hurting whether silently and alone or just the opposite. I pray for all of you not to feel alone or misunderstood. I pray for you to have support in hard times, to feel happy and loved. For you to find courage and strength to power through and conquer what ever it may be that is hurting you, holding you back and may you be blessed with a fresh set of eyes on your struggle. I pray that the empty feeling you experience be replaced with such contentment, your heart overflows of joy. I pray that those of you that feel stuck in your situation and see no way out be granted with the power to walk above the clouds in your life, beyond your pain and see the illuminated path to your exit.

I would love to hear from all of you and be able to say a special prayer for you.

Until next time my fellow wanderers,

Mel Wandering